回家了,还是那么热,让人身不由己的会浮躁,本来早该解决的事情却拖到现在,时间就这样匆匆过去,晚一天就会少很多机会,也罢,就让它溜走吧,独自在北京生活已经一年了,也就是说住校已经七年了,突然发现原来自己还没有独立,因为当问题来临时我想到的仍不是自己,而是也许谁能帮我解决或者是退却,逃避.不甘平凡就得为此付出代价.今天是我收到广院通知书的日子,现在已经整整一年了,这一年过得是这样的快,而我所学的却远低于我所期望的.我得开始为将来的路打算了,下个学期,我知道又会有很多诱惑和矛盾等着我,如何面对?不论如何,我的心不免要饱受折磨,也许这才是我来广院的第一年得到的最多的东西.我犯过错,从一开始起,直到我离开的前一天,有些是不可原谅的,但是已经成了历史,没有补救的办法,只希望记忆能冲刷一切,人生是一场一条命的游戏,我多想能读取去年此时的存档,把这一年再过一次,然而没人能满足我的愿望.人永远是自己人生的开拓者,当然,也会是终结者.昨天看了Britney Spears live from Las Vegas除了震撼外还有许多感触:她曾经对理想的渴望与追求,和理想实现时的快乐经历或许比她的舞姿更吸引我,特别是当她说I feel so wonderful because I'm doing exactly what I want to do时的骄傲和自信,我在想是否真的该向她一样never ever lose my passion to dream.

终于考试了,世界杯也要决赛了,突然回到久违的空间,发现这里原来是如此的out of touch, 看来我早已被overide concern了, 甚至连have a say的权利都没有,这个学期一直在following sb's lead好好学习,期末复习才发现做了一个学期的电子版笔记would not be helpful in creating the necessary revision confidence.学校内外的打印室充斥着各种版本的复习题,考完马哲大家才发现它们spectacularly missing the point,并且应该be not entitled to participate in such debates.不过这次马哲的题目的确很难,或者说是变态也无过,出卷老师完全dismiss the students as stupid or illogical smacks of arrogance and naivety . 仔细想象这大1一年所学,原来曾经不以为然的返读竟然成了我学到东西最多的一门课,这里用的每局英语几乎都是泛读里的,actually,in essence,庄老师才是a woman of laughter and grace,她wrote as easily as she breathed,而且她was a egalitarian in the truest sense,她respect privacy并且never picked favorits也never hogged credit of handed off blame,她总是comfortable hanging around with我们并且会laughing uproariously,即使生气了她也只是说I'm serious啊!她很幽默但never as a pose,或者说她很搞笑但in no way priggish.曾经我们觉得她有点behind the tmes,但后来才发现原来我们都clueless about她,事实上,她才是那个ahead of the curve的人,她才是国传时尚界Number 1.一直以来classroom are hotbeds of neurosis and jealousy,但在她的课上我们却是editor ar large,她教会我们如何wrote a vigorous defense,也让我们明白如何在课上尽情地savoring life.其实我们05英播是一帮mischievous的学生,我们从进校的那天起就已经gotten off on the wrong foot,我们曾had trouble with one of my neighbors甚至escalated into larger , more complicated disagreements ,不过幸好我们学习了泛读,知道如何forged some kind of peaceful relationship with others.其实最好的办法不是override their concerns更不是trying to provoke antagonism而是要shared our feelings,因为talking things out was the only true path to conflict resolution,而且我们不必be ashamed of our feelings.我们很多人都曾觉得被taken in到这个专业,骨子里focused on CBA as our likely long-term security headache,认为it is them that presents the abiding challenge to our might.其实that perspective was wrongheadid since it's ingrained in human nature to fight and argue. 不可否认他们在学校里have the greatest bearing, 但毕竟it's chilly to remain at this high altitude, 他们必须preoccupy it.而我们偶尔也有人会striking absurd poses,或者是give a pose for the cameras,这都是一种不smart的做法,而且这种不 low-key的做法只会planted themselves resolutely apart from the mainstream.而眼下我们最应该做的是不断plumb the mysteries of EXTENSIVE READING 努力在将来sign up for a graduate fellowship甚至earning tenure .尽管大家只give it pretty long odds,但这才是真正get EBA going的最好办法,我们完全没必要sponsor resolution on ...特别是在我们的strategic plate is full的情况下,我们应尽量avoid bankrupting ourself in a futile arms race ,相反我们应该努力reaching an accomodation并最终赢得a mutually beneficial embrace!最后总结一句no hammering out , no spinning out ,TO BE PRAGMATIC IS GLORIOUS !!!!

上周去看了03表演的毕业大戏《钦差大臣》，今天晚上又去看了04表演的期末汇演，感觉很震撼------不愧是经过三试招进来的，很专业，他们几乎精细到每个细节：每句台词的语调、每个表情的把握、每个动作的变化。真是看了才知道原来老师们用来赞扬我们的戏剧的那些话原来不过是我们用来自欺欺人的资本。好像很多人对广院的表演系不以为然，但从每天早上6点的集体练功、每天晚上排练室的灯光便可看出他们很下工夫。一个朋友说，表演一辈子都学不完，可能在现在的影视圈中，广院表演系的牌子还不够硬，但我相信他们总有一天会成功的。

I earned some money this week , firstly on friday , I went to Peking university with my godbrother Tim and Drew , we worked as "interpreter" for the IPC(international palaeontological congress) since Tim's father was the member of China Association for Science and Technology. In fact , we know little about this subject apart from "Cambrian" , actually , our responsibility was only to take the participants from congress reception to their hotel ,and then , to a buffet .

Then , the next two days , I was worked in the international conference center as a game host . I was exhausted after 10 hours' work each day from 8.am to 6.pm ,altough the pay is low for a host , I got dozens of little gifts beyond expectation ! What's more , maybe sounds boring or even ridiculous , the working experience ,for I find myself much superior than just being a student's tutor who earns 35 or 50 per hour or a blue color worker in a fast-food restaurant . 

Unluckily , on my way back , I broke my "little smart", so now I used my mobile phone , and my new Beijing number is 13426411880 .

 

Recently i met 2 girls from Tsinghua , and then I know what does SUPERGIRL really means , of course not the superficial bisexual ones singing in Hunan TV.The first one , the champion of the contest which i have also taken part in , is a teacher of New Oriental's basic English department She also got the first prize in the 21st century speech competition and been to Australia with our EBA's godsister -------professor Su's most favored student. The second girl , my Japanese classmate , who always sits beside me quitely and even frigidly turned out to be the Number 1 in science NMET , with full marks in math and science colligation , she got 720 totally. What's more , she is only 19 and has skipped the grade for 3 times . Now she is a junior student and will soon go to tokyo university where her father worked as a math teacher.

Here i find that talented people are anywhere , and there is a long way for me to run . Frankly speaking , when I was young , i was also considered a whiz kid in my little world , but now , to be pragmatic seems more glorious , by the way , tomorrow will be the one-year anniversary of NMET , bryond celebration I also wish those friends who stayed in the hell for the new-burning good luck !

最近真是比赛不断,首先要祝贺好朋友黄橙子进入了成都超女50强,也希望大家能够支持她!其次就是I my self . I got the third prize in the fianl contest "第三届首都高校外语文化节形象大使选拔赛暨口语展示大赛" and thanks to my friends 李典、帕尔哈提、刘劲容、刘畅、程翔 I also win the prize of "best talent and skill". Although sth expected happened on the stage , the volume of the microphone and also our cooperation , it still turned out to be outstang as our band's virgin show . And i also feel deeply grateful to my friend 张力 who provide me with the electric piano , my godbrothers 邢旭东、王骁、姜廖晨 who acted as my porter and carried the piano from 梆子井 to 报告厅 , 邬妮妮------ my camerawoman , and also those friends and classmate who came to support me . 

The result wasn't so excited that I didn't earn the ￥1000 because of 0.4 marks inferior . But anyway , I also earn a lot , such as friendship and experience . This time when I stood on the stage , I hardly felt any nervousness at all and I thought that I took the whole control of the stage , this stage sense must be benifit for my left career of EBA .

 

It rains cats and dogs today , i stay at home------now i've considered my domitry as my home , it's small but snug . Maybe this friday will be the last I stayed home , since next week's friday i will be on the stage , i would have proud of my couragement and diligence after 20 years since everybody knows how hard it is to get on there , competeting for the so called "big shit image"(some of my friends give it such an amusing name scornfully as the chinese pronuciation 使 & 屎 are totally the same). In fact , i will not be there if someone didn't force me to hand in the sign up paper . Well , since i was enrolled into the final contest , I find myself uneasy even just in my daily life that i can hardly consentrate myself when doing some reciting work , what's more is that i do not know how to prepare it except waiting them to inform me the place and time .

Luckily there's nothing serious about my dear laptop , after reconstructing my 1GB DDR2 , she returns home refreshed and revatilized . This time , getting there had been the fun . And my 2 hours double way journey was no longer that tedious . Just as Janet Mandell Goldstein mentioned , i also find our chinese are constantly in a hurry------and not just to get point A to point B , our whole society has become a nation in search of the quick fix------in more ways than one , and we , on the other hand are also on our way to being that new species of mechenized savage , the push-button Neanderthal . Our colleges inevitably graduate a number of such life forms but it cannot be said that they went to college ; rather the college went through them------without making contact .